Friday 29 October 2010

27/10/10 我人生故事里的痛苦,残忍。。。

27/10/10,9:30am raining heavily....our plan was,my sister will drop me to our grandma's place before she goes to work..but we have to change our plan instead of she dropping me to my grandma's place,i'll drop her to work with bike and go to my grandma's place by myself.so that she doesn't have to wet herself..at least i can change my clothes after i reach grandma's place...

My sister reached on time..when i was on my way to my grandma's place an accident happened on me!!!
i was planning to cut to the right lane which is in front of the St.Georges Girl school
the car beside me brake in the sudden(by right,if the car didn't brake,i'll follow the lane and ride behind the car) and turn right without corner light...that fella stop in the sudden,logically,i had to brake also what..if not,i'll bang on the car..the road was so slippery..i used the foot brake but the motor still cannot stop,so,i had to use emergency brake...my bike finally stopped. It buang and i felt down on the middle of the road..my right leg stuck under the bike..the bike was too heavy,it pressing my leg and i couldn't manage to push it away..i tried my very best to push the bike away but failed..to safe my own life,i pulled my right leg out instead of pushing the bike away and get myself away from the middle of the busy road..normally cars fly on that busy road..i scared the cars behind come too fast,cannot manage to stop and bang on me..I WILL DIE~!

I am safe and stand up by myself..one uncle helped me to push my bike to the side..i had no feeling after i get up...i told the uncle i am going back and thanks for helping me..but he stopped me..pointed on my leg and said"your leg is bleeding..come into my car so that you won't get rain" when i saw the HOLE on my leg i was like "shit!! why is it so deep and big???!!" i panic like shit...~_~
the uncle used his towel to cover my wound to stop my blood...the towing service people came and helped me to phone 911...i stressed to the uncle i do not want to go to hospital.He said i have to go,the hole is too big and have to sew..I phoned my mom..she was busy and didn't answer my phone so,i phoned to my uncle..
The ambulance slow like turtle...my blood kept flowing out...my uncle and the ambulance reached at the same time..my grandpa accompany me to the government hospital by AMBULANCE..my grandpa still has the mood to joke..he said this is his 1st time to sit in the ambulance..gosh~! this is also my 1st time okay~!@_@
I scared until i cannot cry..my hand shaking non stop...Until my mom reached hospital..i cried..because they said they need to sew my leg!!! >.<
my mom also pity me and cried..i cried more than 10 times on that day...T____T

When i first reached GH,the nurse cleaned my wound and injected 2 stitches of medicine on my two arms..after that asked me to go for X-ray before they start stitching...T___T
takes quite a long time to wait for the X-ray..while waiting,the wound bleeding non stop..

When is my turn for stitching,i started to cry again T__T i dare not go in by myself..mom went in with me..the doctor came and start his job...
he injected 5 stitches of pain killer around the wound..you cannot imagine how pain is it..my tears just rolling down from my eyes without control..the doctor asked me to relax..stop crying..if not it will be more painful..i tried my best to stop my tears..mom dare not see and almost fainted..doctor gave mom a chair and sit beside me..after the pain killer,to make sure the medicine works,doctor used needle to poke my wound..make sure i have no feeling...and he started to sew~~~i was so bad luck..the yellow light in the room rosak..nurse asked doctor need to change room?doctor said no need he can see..gosh!! make sure you can see don simply sew pls~!is my leg!! not nice tu cham!!!

Sewing process,still.....i cannot tahan..cry again..haiz...thinking..WHY ME??!!!and keep asking mom..going to finish or not??it took a long time to finish..when mom asked the doctor,total how many stitches he used?
the blur doctor answers"i didn't count." should be too many stitches until he cannot manage to count..

After that i went back..reached home at 1:15pm..imagine it took how long..@_@
my head started to pain..headache..should be lost too much blood..my feet and my hand cold like ice,my toe turned purple..(the result of losing too much blood and too scared)
I have to accept there will be a scar on my right leg..but luckily no fracture on my bone

today,the 3rd day..still,i cannot walk..have to use tongkat..but at least today better than the previous day..
this accident causing problems to my family members..include my mom,grandma,grandpa,aunty,uncle...etc..
even my little brother also help me up...always bring medicine and tongkat for me..真的没白疼他。。^^"

Tuesday 5 October 2010

The Fate

Well,at the age of 19,do you believe in FATE??
I said NO! to the aunty..>_
Mom planned to bring me to 算命(fortune-telling).We went yesterday afternoon with my grandma..
Mom gave the fortune teller my 时辰八字(hour character??)I'm not sure how to say in English..LOL
And she started to explain..

From my hour character,i have too much  of water..
2 water 3 metal 1 wood 1 gold short of one thing..that is FIRE 
without fire,meaning i am not a brave person..not brave enough,not confident  to decide or make something works..she also mentioned,i'm a very aggressive person..will do what i like without thinking bout the end result..do what i want,without care of others' feeling,others' advice
always work something out in my own way..
she added,it is good sometimes when there's no fire in my life so that i will not go for the wrong way..maybe will listen to others' advice since i'm not brave..LOL...i think this is true..hahaha~!
Without fire,yet,i am the eldest child,my siblings will not listen to me..coz i am not that strict..
YES!! I AGREE WITH THIS~! instead i scold them..they scold me more often...haiz..tsk~!

Next,she asked whether i'm still studying or not..she said GOOD! if you're still studying..but..i choose the wrong course..i'm not suitable to study ACCA..instead of taking accounting course she advice i have to go for some other courses which have scientific knowledge ..such as..doctor,scientist or engineer..
Half way to ACCA,for sure i will not give up what.and i am not interested in those courses she mentioned..LOL..

About marriage..
i better don say it here..haha..my secret~! LOL


SO,do you think it is true?she talked bout half and hour,we gave her RM50..a bit regret..
shall ask my mom pay me RM50,let me talk bout her future..hahah..